3 More Bite the Dust!

164!!!!! That's right.......3 down !!!!!!!!

I'm a happy girl.

Here's a sample of what my calories have looked like-

Since having a love affair with yogurt parfait's last week, I decided to make my own... and just for the record... mine is SO much better for less calories:)

I used:

Fat Free Activia (French Vanilla) -60 cal

1/4cup fresh blueberries-20 cal

1/3cup of Special K Mutligrain Oat & Honey Cereal-50 cal

Total - 130 cal

It's yummy- I promise.  I'm not a big yogurt fan, but I'll eat it with granola or cereal.

So, I follow this chick's blog ( not Mama Chrissy....but Mama Laughlin) who has been losing weight for a while.  The DeShazo got me hooked on reading it.  This chick started out at 225lbs-just like me- and she's now TEENY-TINY- I think she's in the 130's now.  She runs and eats pretty clean.  Anyway, Mama Laughlin likes to share tons of personal info that some may think is TMI, but sometimes it's nice to read what others are really going through.  Last week, she posted something I thought was brave and interesting.  She blogged about how her relationship with her husband has changed and how she didn't have an opinion in their relationship as a heavy girl, but now that she's healthy and confident, she does have an opinion and wants to do more things and how she sees things differently...which has caused some dissension in their marriage. Wow... that was a completely jacked up sentence- but I'm not rewording it.

This got me to thinking...

Has my marriage with Martinez changed drastically in any way?  Have I become too opinionated?  Is Martinez happy with the changes?

I thought on this for quite a while.  I see many changes in myself...but fortunately..... I believe that all of these changes are positive....though... unfortunately.... I came out of the womb with an opinion, hehe..so that wasn't altered.  

After thinking some more, I decided to discuss it with Martinez.  If you think this is weird, oh well.  Martinez and I discuss everything...like...everything...like....I even tell him when I forget to put deodorant on (don't worry- I keep an extra in my purse) or when I put my undies on backwards or inside out.... and yes... for some reason...that happens to me all the time!

Anyway, I asked if he saw any changes in me and told him why I was asking, but didn't tell him the changes I saw in me.  This is was my response from Martinez ...well.... I'm not Mama Laughlin and I'm not sharing some of what Martinez said....although it was very positive:):

*You are able to do more things. Remember when you couldn't even walk up the stairs at the water park?

*We are able to play sports together now like softball and throw around a football.

*Your overall mood is better.  I'm not saying this to be mean...but you are less grumpy.

*You don't seem as depressed or down.

*You seem excited about doing things.

*You are happier.

*You play with Liv more

Martinez and I had this conversation last week....and I've thought about it nonstop.  I didn't realize that I seemed depressed when I was at my heaviest.  I didn't realize that he was paying attention to me climbing the stairs at the water park....although I know exactly what day he's talking about because I was huffing and puffing while dragging my tube up those stairs with my chest in utter pain and misery.   I do know that I was grumpy...very grumpy... and I wonder why on earth he didn't march me right on in to a Weight Watcher's or Jenny Craig.  At the end of the day, I know he dealt with it because he loves me and I'm so thankful for such a wonderful husband.

All I know...is that I cannot go back to being fat.  I hated the thoughts in my head, mostly when I was in a group of people.  I would think "I'm the fattest girl in this group" or " Ok, there is one bigger person in here"..just negative crap like that... and all of those thoughts are gone now.  Of course I'm not skinny right now... and may not ever be skinny.....but I'm in a much healthier place and 61 pounds lighter!!  Those 61 pounds have provided me energy to have fun with my family, hopefully years to my life, a confidence I didn't have before, and freedom.   Yesterday... Martinez and I went to JC Penney and while in line to check out some shoes for LG, there was a rack of black, sleeveless dresses.  I'm a girl who believes in black dresses for any time of year... so I started browsing through them, even though I have to wait until I hit 155lbs to get my shopping spree.  I was SO happy to see that all of the sizes were 12-16....and now.... those sizes are too BIG !!?  It's the little things sometimes.

Speaking of those little things.... I went through my clothes again this weekend...Some of the shirts that barley fit me before have now been turned into sleep shirts or dresses...and this is so exciting...but... since they still had XXL/XL tags.... I cut them out:) I don't even want to see those sizes because I am not that girl anymore...

I know that's such a vain thing to some of you... but for me....it's totally a mental thing.

Shoe shopping....

LG has outgrown all of her shoes except boots. So, Friday was shoe shopping day.  She ended up getting 5 pair of new shoes.... and then 2 more pair ordered online Saturday.. and then 1 more pair on Sunday.  I'm hoping not to purchase new shoes for a while.  She also conned me into buying her a pair of bunny slippers....

She was worn out afterward....

Martinez has been so gracious to let me have a portion of my shopping spree funds early for shoes!  Just FYI, my feet have shrank.....

These... are now too big:(

I've added them all to my giveaway box...except my taupe boots...I just can't part with them yet.... and I have to drag my feet to keep them on... so I need to keep them to annoy The DeShazo when she's on one:)

My point for informing you guys about my shoes... is just to say that I didn't realize that my feet would shrink:)  I purchased a pair of 7 1/2's this weekend!!! I've worn an 8 1/2 since high school ! Weird.  Weight loss is crazy.

I also found some really, really, super old shoes while going through my closet... like these...

Yep... that's right... my old riding boots and spurs.... with good ole' Arkansas dirt still on em'.  I'm not parting with those either.

It's been a great week!  I've gotten lots accomplished, which includes getting LG's birthday outfit chosen !  I can't believe she's gonna be 2 in a few short months!  Man, that just totally made me need to hear an Aerosmith song...

Until Next Time....

Ma'dam Martinez